Prayer

I have a simple but very strong testimony of the power of prayer. Prayer is my life line. It is the one thing that brings me instant peace and comfort. Though often my questions aren't answered, or the answer is not what I'd hope, my savior does not leave me comfortless. This journey started with a simple answer to a prayer. The moment my "life plan" changed I dropped to my knees and my savior took over. It was amazing to watch all the tender mercies unfold after turning it over to Christ. My prayers aren't always answered, but the connection I feel to my father in heaven is enough. Many have said how strong I am, and that there is no way they could do it. I beg to differ, anything can be done if you choose to humble yourself and trust in The Lord. I cannot take the credit for how I have handled it all, the credit belongs to my savior. There have been multiple times I have been so angry with my father in heaven, just wanting answers, and for it to be taken away. The moment I let my faith take over my outlook changed. I encourage all of  you to fight your battles on your knees. You will always win. He will not leave you comfortless.

Love always,

K

The Tracker.

Do you ever have those days where the tears just keep falling? Granted, they are for the most part happy tears. Those days where memories play over and over in your mind. In that instant you'd give anything to just go back to that one day. Just that one moment. Tonight that's where I am.

Nine months and nine days is the day i'd choose to go back to. It was about this time I was sitting outside of this car. The moment that door opened my whole world changed. It was that night I chose to take a risk. In that moment, and for days after, no matter what happened it was pure bliss, love and happiness. Crazy to think that this little white tracker changed my life, my world. If I could re-live that night over and over again I would.

It's time for me to move forward. In one week I will be on my way to start my new adventure. I am grateful each and every day for moment the door of the tracker opened. No matter how things are, or how they will be, I wouldn't trade that moment for anything in the world. 

Loved you then

love you still

always have

always will!

Always and Forever,

K

Sunshine on a Cloudy Day.

Today I am grateful for that small glimmer of sun you get in between storms. I am grateful for the hope you are given in that instant. There are going to be hard days. There will be days that you just feel happy, days where for a split second your storm stops. Those sunny days have given me the will power and strength to keep moving forward. I am blessed with an absolutely incredible family and circle of friends. I owe my sunny days to you and my loving savior :)

Love always,

K

Just for me.

Have you ever set in your church meetings in awe. Not only is the spirit un real but, the speakers are talking just to you. Today I was so humbled. Lately I have been so angry. I've wanted to yell and throw in the towel. I am attending all my meetings, praying, reading my scriptures and attending the temple but, things seem to be standing still.... Today the question was asked, " Do you have the faith to not be healed?" We all know our savior will not leave us, he has atoned for everything we are to go through. He is waiting with forgiveness and his arms wide open. Do we have the courage and strength to follow him when the answer might not be what we want or may never come? I have a strong testimony of our savior. He knows what we can handle. He will not let us endure these trials alone. However, this is HIS plan. This life is a test. These trials are placed in front of us to strengthen us. Questions will be answered and trials will be given according to what we need to learn. Trust him, he truly is the only way we can get through this. Leave the what ifs.. Heavenly Father has the answers. Have faith, plant your feet and hold your ground as you are tested, tried and tempted. He will NOT leave us comfortless.

Good days and Bad days.

There comes a point during a trial where you feel so strong and ready to take on the world. You quietly shout hurray I did it, and are beyond grateful to be where you are. Hate to rain on your parade but, those days don't always last. However, we determine the outcome of each day. Fall to your knees, wipe your tears and no matter how hard it is, put a smile on your face. Fight every battle on your knees! Easier said then done, I know.. Getting out of bed is the very last thing I want to do each morning but, I can promise that it is so worth it.

" For every minute you are ANGRY
you lose 60 seconds
of HAPPINESS"

Be you. Be happy. Watch how beautiful the world becomes.

Love always,

K

Broken roads.

It never ceases to amaze me how different things are when you take one step back. In April I went on my dream vacation. Our vacation started in Boston, where we stayed with my favorite cousin and his sweet family. No big deal, right? Wrong. Heavenly Father for saw so much more. He prepared me for the heart wrenching news I'd receive, and the day my world crumbled. People were placed in my life and relationships were formed so I could make it through what feels like hell. What I would give to stay here and be with my family and friends.. I have come to realize this is not where I am suppose to be. I can't save him, and I am loosing myself.  My broken road is what lead me to paradise, a fresh start, a new beginning and most importantly an opportunity to heal.

Love always,

K

Our storm.

"Sometimes God calms the storm...

sometimes He lets 

the storm rage and 

calms His child."

What a beautiful outlook. Our circumstance may never change, may never get easy but, our savior will always be there to comfort us. If there is one thing I have learned over the last view months it is that our Savior lives. He is completely aware of where we are, our pain and the amount we can take. I have completely broken down and have been discouraged. I have felt so alone and worthless, but as I have fallen to my knees I have felt an overwhelming feeling of peace. Each day comes with a new pain, a new challenge. We have the opportunity to start over each and every day. Do your best and be you. Your savior will make up the rest. He always comes through.

Love always,
K

Happiness is a Choice,

As I get ready to embark on my adventure in paradise I am humbly reminded of the circumstances that have led to this decision. By no means was this an easy task but, it is one I have made after much prayer and fasting. I am no where near where I want to be. My world has been changed by agency but, today right now I have made a choice, a choice to be happy.