Which Way do You Face?

Which way do you face? 


With all the excitement that's happened in the last month I am a little behind on what's been going on. This conference was absolutely amazing. I was so impressed with this talk and it hit me so hard. Please take the time to read this talk and really ponder what's being taught. It defiantly changed me, and my prospective.

"When others demand approval in defiance of God’s commandments, may we always remember whose disciples we are, and which way we face." Elder Lynn G. Robbins

Christmas.

Can I just say how excited I am for Christmas!! The act of giving is so accelerating! I absolutely love seeing people's face on Christmas as they open their gifts. What I love the most though is the story behind this special day. How amazing. We are so blessed. Remember the true meaning as you go about your crazy Holiday routines. He lives.

Love always,
K

Listening to the Holy Ghost.

There have been a few times over the last couple months that I've felt prompted to contact old friends or write. These are things I feel like I do often, they aren't out of the ordinary. Today I have been able to see that it's my Father in Heaven. It is not just a random thought, but something he feels that I need to do. How blessed are we to continually receive guidance from our Father in Heaven. It is so important that we act when we hear the still small voice. Take time to avoid the noise of the world, and pray to him. Just as he sends us to answer others prayers, he will send them to answer ours.

Love always,
K

Day 10

Today I am thankful for kind words. Living across the country from Brody is so hard. The last week since i've been home has been extra hard. I've cried multiple times a day and just been in a slump. All because i'm missing him. Today I headed to Nordstrom with my cousin to get my make-up done. I wanted a change. I wanted to have them show me how to really do my make-up for the nights we go out and a look for my wedding. I needed a pick me up. After calling Brody crying about spending money he informed that he was okay with whatever I did. If it made me feel good he was happy. He let me know that I looked stunning with and without make-up I paused for a second and felt so blessed. How lucky am I to have a fiance that tells me i'm beautiful when i'm at my worst. I promise you today I was at my worse, ugly crying face and all. I didn't need make-up to make me feel beautiful, he truly makes me feel beautiful each and every day. It made me think about how those kind words made me feel. I have made it my new goal to share kind words with those around me, strangers or not.

Love always,

K

Love.

My blog isn't a means of destroying someones image. I'm not here to play the victim. This was a very hard time for the both of us. My goal is to help those who are struggling. I don't post unless I feel prompted. I do talk to B about what is being said. I am madly in love with B and I am beyond excited to start our lives together. This is a part of us. Most people do not get help and do not make it through. We are simply just sharing our story.

Love always,
K

So people have been asking.....

I've been asked multiple times how I forgave and how I was able to let go and love him again. The truth is, I NEVER stopped loving him. I was so hurt and felt so betrayed but, I did forgive him, because I loved him. I couldn't change him. I couldn't make him be who I wanted him to be. I could however, be who I needed to be. I could be an example and hope in turn he would want  what mattered the most. I continuously was pleading with my father in heaven to help him change.  To change his heart. I was going about it the wrong way. When I finally humbled myself and let go miracles happened. Heavenly Father works in mysterious ways. I am a living example that he does answer prayers. He is fully aware of our situation and when the time is right he will answer them in his own way. I have a very strong testimony of the atonement. People can change and do change. In the scriptures the lord tells us that.. " I, the Lord, will forgive whom I will forgive, but of you it is required to forgive all men." We are not the deciders of who is worthy or not worthy and whether a person can or cannot chance. We are to love and be examples. Everyone deserves a change and everyone is in need of the light we poses. Don't give up on them, the savior never once gave up on us.

Love always,

K

One of those days.

With change comes difficulties, with change comes hard decisions. Life changing decisions, heart wrenching decisions.  Our story isn't like any others. Its not an ordinary story. It's a story with ups and downs. A story with heart break, frustrations and many tears. I have learned that no one is perfect. I have also learned that our loving Savior leaves it all up to us. No matter how hard it is he lets us make the decision. We are the deciders of how our lives will go. We decide the outcome of each situation. Satan comes from every direction. He attacks hard and he attacks fast. If there is anything I have learned it is to have your feet firmly planted. Do not waiver. Have guards and fight back twice as hard. This life isn't meant to be easy. Its a battle. We must be prepared for the fiery darts that are being thrown. Make the choice to fight, make the choice to get through the hard and enjoy the good. Our stories aren't meant to be the same, they aren't meant to be perfect.

Love always,
K

The Proposal.

I figured since its almost been a month I would finally share the mushy gushy details of our engagement. I will forewarn you that the day wasn't perfect and this post is going to be extra long. Also  if you are amazing at english, you probably won't want to read this. The hours leading up to the big moment were frustrating and I was so grumpy. The whole trip was full of white lies.

I flew out October 10th to surprise my family and friends. The night before Brod let me know that he would be working overtime and could not pick me up from the airport. I was so frustrated. We had specifically chosen this flight just so he could pick me up. I told him I was going to sit in the airport until he picked me up because I didn't want anyone else to. So I got on the plane and made my way to Utah. I finally landed and called him. He told me to hurry and give his mom a call to make sure she was there to pick me up, and call him after. I  gave her a call and was explaining where I was waiting when I got a tap on the shoulder. I turned around and there he was with balloons and an extra big smile on his face. ( white lie number 1)

After tears a huge hug and a lot of kisses we were on our way to surprise my family. I decided I would give my family a call just to see what my parents were doing (where my parents were, white lie number 2 ). I couldn't get a hold of anyone except my dad, who of course wasn't home. So we decided we would go surprise my sister K and baby K. Her reaction was priceless. She was in shock and let us know about ten times that she hated us ( she was just really excited and pregnant). We made a game plan of how we were going to surprise my parents and went on with our day. We went Brod's house and his mom wasn't home. Usually we go through the garage or something but, for some weird reason we had to wait in the backyard. ( white lie number 3) We visited for awhile and made a plan for what we would do that night. We decided we were going to watch a movie up in the mountains. His parents were very adamant about us taking the DVD player right than because they weren't going to be home later that evening. ( white lie number 4) We grabbed the DVD player, went for a hayride, picked pumpkins, surprised my parents and enjoyed Cafe Rio. It was the most perfect way to start my stay in Utah.

The day of the propsal started out perfect. Brody came and picked me up and we went out for my favorite breakfast, french toast from Kneaders. It was so yummy! We than headed to Ross and a couple other places. Brody informed that he was dropping me off and I needed to get ready for pictures. ( we had planned to have someone just take some fun pictures of us while I was there ) Well a couple hours passed by and still no Brody. I texted him and asked where he was and he said he was going to find his white shirt. ( white lie 5) I started to lose patience. He than informed that the photographer needed to move the picture time ( about five times ). I finally told him this was becoming to stressful and I would rather not do pictures and just hang out. That didn't fly with him. I decided to just set my phone aside when I heard a knock at the door. It was his mom. She informed that her mom was having car trouble and Brod and his dad needed to go help her. ( white lie 6 ) So we  all hopped in her car and headed to Brigham for pictures where Brod would meet up with us.

We pulled up to where we were going to take pictures and I only saw Brody's car. I was confused. I asked if the photographer was even there yet. His mom told us she knew where we needed to go and the photographer would just meet us there. We started to walk down towards the spot when I noticed mason jars with candles. I was so clueless. I just thought hmm thats weird. I turned the corner. Noticed a huge sign that said, " Our happily ever after starts here". I then glanced up to see Brody walking across the stream to meet me. With tears in my eyes I turned around to my mom and future mom. I was able to get the words out you knew as the tears started falling faster. My prince charming grabbed my hand walked me across the stream down into this meadow. The following moments after were perfect. We were in the mountains, by a stream it was surreal. There were mason jars and candles in the trees, a picture timeline, a cute table with chalk board sayings and the love of my life right in front of me. He read me the sweetest letter, got down on one knee and asked me to marry him. After struggling to get my promise ring off and the real thing on, he turned me around to introduce me to the photograper. HIS SISTER!! She had flown in from Arizona to capture our perfect day. Within the next little while my whole family came walking down, along with his. It was so perfect.

I am extremly blessed and beyond excited to start my happily ever after with the man of my dreams, April 25th, 2015.

Love always,
K

Highlights of the Week:

• Brody was tickling me, I went to get away and slammed my head against the wall.
• Brody tried to tickle me again while walking out my front door and he dropped me, and than shut the door on my ankle.
• Brody tried to tickle me for the third time and when I went to duck down he went to stand up causing me to bite my tongue.
• Sunday after the engagement we headed to Ogden for a baby blessing when a piece of wood flew up and nailed Brody's car. 

The week was so perfect and every little white lie made things that much better. It was a week of wonderful surprises.