Burdens.

             The last few days have been full of ups and downs. I have really struggled, and for the first time since I decided to leave Utah, cried myself to sleep (multiple times). I have felt so alone, and so helpless. I didn't feel like doing anything, but forced myself to go to family activities. Finally, saturday night I got down on my knees and asked for help. I asked for my father in heaven to direct me to friends that might be a source of light during this difficult time. I woke up Sunday feeling normal. I did the usual pre-church stuff; showered, ate breakfast and headed to church. I set by myself and was immediately surrounded by friends, and this seemed to be the case the rest of the day. People were coming up and introducing themselves ( even though I had come the week before ) and instant connections were made. In Relief Society a scripture was read:

" And now it came to pass that the burdens which were laid upon Alma and his brethren were made light; yea, the Lord did strengthen them that they could bear up their burdens with ease, and they did submit cheerfully and with patience to all the will of the Lord," Mosiah 24:15. 

            My eyes began to water and tears began to fall. My Father in Heaven was aware of me, he knew the pain I was feeling, and he was answering my prayers. Heavenly Father will not take away my trials, he won't find employment for my parents, take away addictions from those I love or heal my broken heart. I know however that he will make my burdens light. I am beyond grateful for this gospel. I am grateful for a loving Savior who loves and cares for me so much.
            I stumble and seem to have to restart over and over again, but I know because of his atoning sacrifice I can find comfort and I will live with him again. I have learned that we need to be grateful for our trials, because of them we grow. I am grateful for my trials. They are what led me to this new adventure. Everyday I am able to see and be reassured that this is where I am suppose to be. The gospel is true, the savior lives and loves us. If we take time to step away from this crazy world, listen and reflect we will see his hand in our lives. Turn to him. The answer to my prayer was not completely obvious. I didn't think anything of it when various people were introducing themselves to me. However, as Mosiah 24:15 was read and I allowed the spirit to teach me, I knew without a doubt that these people were sent into my life to ease my burdens. I truly live in paradise. This is where i'm meant to be.

Love always,

K